ku janjikan aku ada~~~

hello...assalamualaikum friends...2010 is approaching...yeay....

got so many wishing me LOVE in 2010...appreciated all of you sweet darlings :)

and with so many happenings in 2009, i've learnt a lot and will make 2010 better...
people always ask what are my new year resolutions? i started to jot down and the list goes on and on...i keep adding and adding and adding...finally, i reached a conclusion, this should not be...i won't be able to accomplish soooo much with my soooo little wealth - TIME...

okay, here's my point (i got this lesson throughout 2009' experiences, OK): TIME is my sole wealth...i'll start investing my time wisely...i'll make full use of it by making all my precious time meaningful...later, i won't regret of not doing my part...i like this :)

that's how all my new year resolutions become only one new year promise...
which is - Ku Janjikan Aku Ada~~~

with given time, i can ever promise to be there whenever need be...

in doing my part, i've learned another lesson throughout 2009' experiences too...now, i'll feel better because i've set to do only what i WANT to...

so, people should stop questioning my intentions...

why do I care so much (about almost everything - family , friends, even the world and many many things dear to me)...

my answer - because i WANT to...

this leads to my personal values...i have 5 now - sincere, honest, trust, genuine and unconditional...

oklaa...enough about my personal thought...

current book i'm reading - Taxi Tales on a Crooked Bridge...nicely written but i'm expecting more relaxed stories...finishing in 2-3 days...

latest movies - i've watched Avatar (4.83 stars) and Muallaf (3.87 stars)...tomorrow will bring Afif to watch Alvin & The Chipmunks 2...yeay...

newborn - Wir & Krool's prince: Muhammad Altamis Idraki and Husna's second boy...

newlyweds - Dayang and Adzwan, Afan & Emiza, Erin & Nawawi, Leanne & hubby,Faisal & honey, Hassan and Shazz...able to attend 3 receptions...anyway, wishing all of you LOVE of a lifetime....

and happy too for Farah's engagement to Fendi last week...upcoming engagement ceremony is between Yus and Abang Lan...i'll try to be present...congratulations...

now, this is a close story...i guess i WANT to be part of it...

on Christmas eve, i received an SMS from Y...Y's father was admitted after having a heart attack...I was sorry and felt bad as at the time the SMS should reach me I was singing with friends in Sunway...bad Maxis at Sunway :( I only got to text back at Y nearly midnight...

i had a sleepover at Harni's...the next day, it was Christmas...i send another SMS and Y said his father was getting better and the doctor will try to get off the ventilator...

later, Harni sent me to KL Sentral as my old school friend promised to pick me up...we had our lunch at TCRS first...i'm happy for Harni enjoyed her Pai Tee and her appetite lifted post tonsil operation...you go, girl...

Bearbear came and pick me up at 130pm...we went to Midvalley...we did a little shopping...yes, Beebee, only a little...i only got myself some pampering stuffs from Body Shop...

as usual, with Bearbear, i share and she shares...i told her about Y's father and we related it to her struggling coping with her father's 10 years battling heart attack...until now...it was heavy and still is...

that Christmas night, Bearbear and me went to Dayang's wedding reception...advised by Bearbear, as casual friend, I texted Y again that night...this time, he replied stating that his father's condition was critical...

on Saturday, I was glad to hear that Y's father has been transferred to ICU and Y said the response were positive...i spend time photogedixing at Farah's engagement ceremony...

Sunday came and I went to Hassan's wedding reception with fellow DGA's and Beebee...I brought Afif along...next, at around 2pm, I spent time with Yulie discussing DGA jerseys with printing shop owner at CM...

in the evening, i went back to Beebee's place and we decided to bring our kids (Afif and Aini) to Titiwangsa Lake for evening walk...I asked Beebee about Y but she knew nothing as she'll send SMS to Y later...OK, we texted Y and Y said he might take leave for the whole week...

On Monday, I kept myself busy...Until I received an SMS from Y during Tuesday lunch with Beebee saying that his father was still unconscious...I quickly texted Bearbear...Bearbear was busy in court...

So, at about 3pm, I called Bearbear and we've been discussing issues...that makes me wonder...the doctor(s) might not be telling...i gave Y's father details to Bearbear as apparently Bearbear's sister is currently doing her medic practical at the hospital where Y's father is...what a coincidence...

it is tough for Y right now...i just want to care....please dear friends...help to recite Al-Fatihah for Y's father OK...to Y, my prayers are with you and ku janjikan aku ada~~~

...closing the year 2009...

assalamualaikum...hey, friends! hahaha... to Bearbear, if you're reading this (I know you're reading now) - this entry is specially dedicated to you :)

what happens to malay cinderella?
update, please...

as requested (by many), i'm back...
and i'll try to be back... Bearbear, you definitely caught me...
as the saying, in real life, you've got friends...
in blog world, you've got fans...

who would've thought (read = I never thought) that people likes my craps...LOL...silly me...
thanks for caring yaa...I LOVE all of you...really...

so, back to business...
miss me, eh?!!

for the past...ermm...3 months or so, I was in the middle of recovering phase...
I wouldn't say that I'm suffering but the situation was difficult enough to the extent that I'm invisible...family & friends were supportive but I do feel empty sometimes...that explains why I stopped writing for a while...please forgive me OK...

to make it up, i'll share my close ups for the year 2009...urmm...perhaps the answer to 'why Aliza's still happily single?'

my LOVE life in the year 2009...yeay...

hahaha...soooo very interesting (for me laa - I don't care what other people think)

almost 2 years had passed - i've never been in LOVE ok but i've been hurt...deeply~~~

this year (2009), i've met 3 interesting gentlemen:

K - I get to know K when I thought I was texting my friend Y...It turned out that my friend Y has changed her mobile number and K is now using this number...this is not working...after 2 days of SMSes, i've come to my senses...bye bye K~~~

L - L came to know me through my recipe blog...L resides outside Malaysia...in the earlier part, L made a lot of efforts...after quite sometimes, I gave L my mobile number...surprisingly, L contacted me during his off days...this went on for about 2 months...and later, we became FB friend...from then onwards, everything's changed...no more phonecalls (it's costly, I understand)...but, slowly, L made progress by becoming FB friends with my friends...L only selected my (I would say, gorgeous) friends...L is judging...obviously, something is not right here...L is shutting me off and toying around with my friends...I consider L is not sincere and put a 'STOP' sign...L is still my FB friend until now and that will be it...

M - M is the most complex...F is the one who plans to set me up with M...I met M in early January during friends' outings...after that 1st meeting, we became FB friend...and one fine day, M did ask me out for a movie outing, which I rejected since I've already got plan with my housemates...M never ask since then but F never gave up...we did go for other outings together but the idea of only me & M never came up...I remember M also insisted that F to tag along when M was supposed to send me home (during one of our outing as at that time, I was not so well to drive at night)...F still never gave up... F keeps teasing M & me at every opportunities...after quite sometimes, I learnt that R (F's boyfriend) advised F not to meddle anymore...let the sweet moments (if ever) happens naturally...the next thing is, M became busy with work...quite stressful, yess...there was a time, M got sick....I do care for M as a friend...so, F asked me: 'do you like M?' my answer to F that time: ' as I'm not seeing anyone, I'll just go with the flow...I might like M if he's keen enough...I don't want to hurt myself...so, let M decide.' then, it was my turn to get sick...sometimes, F updates me on M's status...until recently, F apologized to me saying that she feels guilty for letting me in doubt...F told me that right from the 1st encounter, she had asked M about me and the answer that came from M at that time: ' there is no chemistry.' F still placed some hope on us and that's the reason why she's not telling...i thanked F for her good intention...and later I told F : ' actually, the current me is not as brave as the old me used to be...I can be bold but there's so much lessons learnt already...particularly, I am not ready...M too, I guess...and, it is not just M...in fact, I am not ready for anyone yet....I need some more time to be fair.'

with that, I rest my case...Aliza is happily single :)

my standard, however, remains as: I want someone who LOVES me more than I love myself...
I just want~~~