...sincere hatred...

alhamdulillah...today i finally able to forgive myself after nearly 17 days developing sincere hatred feeling...i am a bad girl...i knew it deep down...i am soooo sorry...i've tried all my might to diminish my negative side...but still, i'm just an ordinary human being - full of weaknesses...yet, i'll improve...with time and support from family and friends whom i love and love me back...and purely true to my heart...

this is the story of T...

T is my not-friend...

i value my friendship...i really do...that's why i don't simply quote this saying:
friends are like balloons: once you let them go, you'll never get them back

T unintentionally made me lose a friend...thus, i'd rather lose T...

if i want to become a friend, i want to be a good one...i can't be a good one to T...
i am really really sorry...

only time can heal this and Allah knows best...
forgive me, ya Allah...