...i missed my kebayas...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to All...

i celebrated joyously with my family in Klang...yes,without any of my kebaya...in fact, i still haven't send any of my 4 pairs of cloth to my dressmaker...waarggh...

to be honest, i'm depressed with my weight management...

i've realised the 'heavy' problem about 2 months ago but i can't seem to control it as i'm still on medication...i need to take calcium pills which in turn affected my dietary behaviour...the drugs increases my appetite...i sooo hate this!

my closest dear girlfriends do notice and it doesn't comfort me at all of telling me that 'you're tall and still OK'...yaa...the fact that i'm still in the normal BMI range doesn't count laa...

i'm stressed really...currently, my figure is like - i'm not thin and i'm not fat but i'm missing my curves...on top of that - i become my own fashion victim...sad sad :(

i rarely wear pants to work - no more smart shirts...and i can't wear my kebayas - i'm still fit into them but that's just all it may be (have to constantly check on your sitting position, raising arms whatsoever)...now, i hang them in my closet as my key motivation...lalalalala...

i hate to shop nowadays as my temper rises whenever the size deviates from M...but, i need new wardrobes...waargghh...

one more thing is i hate to admit that i had this problem...whenever any of my concern friends raised the question, i'll surely blame my medication scheme as the reason...

i'm hoping that the coming new year will turn a new leaf for me...my target 55kg healthy weight will be on top of my new year 2009 resolutions...yeay...will start commencing on my 'counting calories all-you-can-eat diet' method on 1st January 2009...support me,okay?!!

i want to wear new kebaya by my 26th birthday!!!meaning - i need to gain back my curves by late March...insya-Allah...