...suburkanlah CINTA kami kepadaMu...

...abstaining time...

makes me feel ever sooo wonderful...

and...

in LOVE...

always...

Happy Ramadhan 1431H :)

...i plan...

so, what do i miss?!!

introducing my rumah raya 2010 project: 07-12

work in progress - will be during the month of Ramadhan...insyaAllah...

...kisah ni...

kite sebenarnye dah lame nak kasi ni kat sahabat kite tu… kite beli ni mase karnival syarikat kite tahun lepas (hujung2 bulan Julai 2009)… waktu itu, kite bertugas jadi sukarelawati untuk jage anak2 staf berkhemah… seronok laa jugak…

waktu itu juge, Upin Ipin kan tengah glemer…maskot2 itu datang laa menghiburkan anak2 staf…turut ade tayangan gambar ‘Geng: Pengembaraan Bermula’…

dah namenye karnival syarikat, sudah pastilah ade gerai2 jualan pelbagai…kite saje laa singgah gerai Les Copaque itu…

bile ternampak ni, kite pun teringat laa kat 1002…jadi, kite nak jadikan ni hadiah besday sahabat kite tu laa awal Ogos 2009 nanti…

nak dijadikan cerite, minggu besday tu laa pulak, sahabat kite tu menghadiri kursus…makenye, tidaklah kite bawak ni…kite cam berkire-kire entah nak kasi ni ke tidak kat sahabat kite tu…

tapi kan, apebile tibe besdaynye (hari itu hari rabu) – sahabat kite tu termuncul untuk makan tengahari bersame…lantas kami bertige makan di kedai ikan…

OKlaa ‘pause’kan cerite sekejap (ala2 intermission dalam cerite Hindustan)…

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cerite hari Khamis lepas pulak (29 Julai 2010):

sewaktu di dalam perjalanan menuju ke pejabat selepas makan tengahari…

Jadi, ko dah simpan setahun?!! Apsal tak kasi je lepas seminggu besday die?!!

Aku tak kasi sebab taun lepas bulan lapan, aku belum bercakap dengan die lagi…Mase tu nombor telepon pun tak ade…

Serius?!!

kite angguk dan kawan kite geleng-geleng kepale…huhuhuhu…

OK…sekarang masuk intermission kedue pulak…

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bile kite nak kasi ni ye?!! tak apelah, kite simpan je dulu…

eh, haa…kite boleh bagi ni mase pegi Singapore nanti kan…

tak jugak kite kasi ni atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan...

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tau-tau dah masuk bulan Februari 2010 pulak – patutnye kite kasi ni sempena besday 1002…memang kite nak kasi ni kat 1002 pun…tapi tak kasi-kasi jugak…kite laa si sengal itu…kite pun teruslah simpan ni…

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akhir cerite:

Selamat Hari Lahir buat sahabat kite tu… alhamdulillah…

ni bertuan baru…yeay…

...echo...

dup dap dup dap...

last friday morning...

the rhythms were like clapping hands...

and soooo cute...

masha'Allah...

first time tengok ye , dik?!!

i nodded and smiled...

adik?!! hehe...

because my generation seldom a regular there...

The final messenger of Allah s.w.t. , Prophet Muhammad (p.b.u.h.) mounted the pulpit, then wept, and said : 'Ask Allah s.w.t. for forgiveness and health, for after being granted certainty, one is given nothing better than health.' [Hadith Riwayat At-Tirmidzi]

...pegun...

that's what i feel right now...

...i want to talk...

or let me rephrase it as i want to have a talk...like we used to...

no...i don't talk...i just want to hear and listen to you...be mad at me...as usual...

rasenye kalu kite kol awak malam ni, awak nak cakap tak?

mls

ok, kite cakap bile awak nak cakaplah...

12 silent days since then...

and i'm being afraid just to ask how are you - everything's a mess now...

they say: many relationships break off because of a wrong speech...

i am really sorry...

people do make mistakes...i have my shortcomings and weaknesses - because of which i never find a better friend than you...(i wonder if this sentence is a wrong speech, aduuuuu)

i still sensed coldness today...and i'm sorry again i LOVE you...

seharum kasturi seindah pelangi

segalanya bermula di hati~~~

...cruel love...

is when they LOVE you...

and so, they can't LOVE you...

so that, you can and will LOVE you...

and later, they will and can LOVE you...

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thank you, LOVE!

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with LOVE, i LOVE~~~ insyaAllah

...take me home to the place i belong...

Sihat..Naper..

Tade apelah, saje je

ooo dear you, how can i tell you that i was scared?

i was scared of not hearing from you...i miss you one...

and i was scared on which way should i care...i miss you two...

and i was scared where should i stand?i miss you three...

i'm just scared...

it has been a week...

and i'm settling to be somebody to myself...

the art of being selfish - something that i need to learn...

yet, i am selfish - but it is the other way round - i never realised that until you kinda slapped me...

i'm exhausting a lot of people who loves me...unintentionally...

you foresee that i must be strong...i will sayang, i will...

yes, really, i am alone... i need to accept and stop being stubborn...

but, i can't agree with you that i'm dishonest...

i guess nobody understand... i just don't trust people easily...(and it's kinda weird i can share this with the world instead)

i did went to seek help...i was anxious each time...i don't like that feeling OK...and it turned out that the helper's conclusions were waayyyy far from what i'm trying to convey...i quit...i am sorry...

but still, i keep on searching for other alternatives...i'm trying not to worry you, of all people...

and i'm also surrendering a precious piece of my heart...i have my reasons...this is difficult...Allah je yang tau...

haa, looks like that i'm miserable,kan?! - but, actually, NO...hehe...

i find myself more calm now...more carefree...i trashed all negativities around me...i lead a simpler way of life...

i'm readjusting...

i smile more...

dear, i miss you...

i promise to be better day by day...insyaAllah...

and i need you...

you 'penting' to me...

take care darling :)

...poison...

is not a burden...

kepada Allah jualah tempat kembali bagi kami...

...you should know...

i am dedicating this to my one special darling...

hey dear, i was hurt...

i am deeply sorry...

please forgive me...

i can hear and listen and read just about anything...

but, please please don't ever ever say ' x penting'...

the feeling of 'x penting' is sooo sooo dreadful...

if living is without you, i can't give, i can't give anymore~~~

i love Allah, i love you

...my this old man...

in a valiant manner, i walked up to straighten things out between me and my this old man...it turned out that me and my this old man long talk was still going to be a crap business as usual...my this old man will never change...i've had enough...i'm taking charge now...

my this old man...he played one...
he played knick knacks towards my friends and me...

my this old man...he played two...
two of my friends are leaving for a betterment...

my this old man...he played three...
i can't understand why i'm the one who feels disgrace facing my this old man who ermmm (i have no suitable word to describe him - and it's not right for me to simply accuse my this old man for this and that and this and that- only He judge) four fingers pointing back at me, lehh...Ok, i forgive my this old man already...

my this old man...he played four...
hey, we're technically match...human factor is left out...i'm the sensitive girl...
this does not work...i have no control...
and so, my this old man have no expectations...

my this old man...he played five...
at the end of the day, you are a part of the system where business matters...
don't i know? my this old man, please tell me...

my this old man...he played six...
i have friends...so long then, my this old man...

Allah loves me and my this old man...insyaAllah...
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what drives me - saya ada cinta...alhamdulillah...

...cintailah aku sepenuh hati...

oh yeah...i cried early yesterday morning on my way to the office while listening to the title song playing on HotFM...a triggered stream of tears flowing down my sweet cheeks...i sang along as well...

sesungguhnya akuuu tak ingin kau pergi...takkan mampu kuhadapi dunia ini~~~
tiada arti semua bila kau pergi~~~

ohhh...

starting last week, i'm fetching my friend N to work as she's at her final stage of pregnancy...it so happened that yesterday, N had a headache and so, I went to work alone...OKlaa...

my mind drifted...

and out of sudden, i received a text message while driving...

i cried...slow and warm...

i reached the basement parking of my office...there, i texted my reply...

hahaha...nothing to do with the contents from the sender...i hardly read them anyway...
it was the situation and it was HIm...

i was fragile...

F tapped me back after breakfast...

come on lah aliza, awak nangis bukan sbb sms...tapi the fact is N tak g keje ngan awak harini...awak rase awak sorang di saat awak sedih dan dtg pulak sms yg tak ade kene mengene time lagu bukan-bukan...yg kene-mengene 'die', betul?!!

yes, darling...

i still care...always...insyaAllah :)