..LoVe cRuisE..

singing my heart out with Ryan.. normal traffic heading towards Iris..

coming back from earlier meeting friends event..awanku was there too.. facing from a distance, ai glanced once in a while.. noticing, his left hand covering his mouth, gritting in control of the situation.. and still, both of his eyes merely 'redup' - joy of my heart..alhamdulillah..

sesungguhnya jalan mendaki itu lebih sukar.. ujian apakah ini?! passing by Damansara, Ryan and me and hey, next to our left side (the centre lane) - ai saw 'awanku' to my surprise..

okay, let's head on together the uphill.. and downhill too..

Ryan and me - we 'santai'ly and wondering.. ensuring our distance - quite just to see and be sure - mister awanku, are you coming?!

right up to Jalan Duta toll exit, Ryan and me went to the Touch 'N Go lane.. and again, there awanku went to the ticketing booth..

fingers crossed, love luck had to struck.. this time, awanku did saw me.. crossing over Ryan and me from the left and leading the way (sort of, since ai took up to tag along closely behind the wheels)..

we parted ways after about 10 minutes or so.. Ryan and me arrived safely at Iris and me wishing awanku well thanking the memories..

my awan, my joy, my sweetness, my smile - everlasting :)

esok

senyummu juga sedihmu

red raya 2014

selamat hari raya 2014.. Allah's blessings.. alhamdulillah..

my awanku is red too.. hahahaha.. yeay..

soalan: bile Ja nak ada 'ada'?

jawapan Ja: bile Ja nak tiada 'tiada'

value at the moment: respect
advice to self and kesayangans: be good :)

..teStinG mY LucK..

semua hanya Allah

...twodaysawan..

the WAU day came..

smile from afar..

he smile, i smile..

lambatnya.. mujur sampai.. (in my heart)

meh isi attendance..

pukul berapa yaa?

enam lebih, dah..

ni grup pink.. (gave a pink badge)

cari kumpulan, yaa..

eh, air (from a friend)..

later,

ni sy nak rase semua ni..

amboi, special tau.. orang lain tidak pun.. (remarks from the previous a friend)

all in all, first encounter - nearly 2 minutes..

second encounter - perhaps 2 minutes too..

and my sawan lasts for two days.. that previous a friend knows..

k-a-m-i

[15:87] - Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah berikan kepadamu 7 ayat yang dibaca berulang-ulang dan Al-Quran yang agung.

...eaSiLLy...(siLLy easE wAy-0Ut)

ku tidak suka untukku tidak suka kepada yang tidak suka ku

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More FEEL - Less THINK 

More SMILE - Less FROWN 

More LISTEN - Less TALK 

Morer ACCEPT - Less JUDGE

More DO - Less WATCH

More APPRECIATE - Less COMPLAIN

More LOVE - Less FEAR

...3 minit itu...

yeay...

Z twiddling on her Ferrari and ending the conversation,"Haa, OK OK."

M interrupting, "Kamu cakap ngan sapa tu?"

Z mentioning yours truly..

M reaching out, "Oh, meh sy cakap ngan dia."

Z carefreely saying, "Alaaa, dah letak."

M just smiled ( yours truly guessed) and continued with their TT.
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M: Program kamu patutnya malam ni kat JJ ke?

Z: Eh, x sure laa.. Tapi, yours truly cakap diorang ade dekat2 area sini..

M: Camne yours truly nak datang amik kamu?

Z: Dah abis nanti, yours truly suruh mesej..

M: OK, nak abis dah ni..
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M: Yours truly dah kat mane?

Z: Saya baru mesej..

M: Takpa2, biar saya call dia..
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Yours truly side:

Z sent a message to yours truly and as yours truly was about to reply back, there was an incoming call (from M).. yeay..

Me: Hello..Ye, encik..

M: Assalamualaikum, cik yours truly..

Me: Waalaikum salam.. Iye, saye..

M: Betul ke yours truly nak datang ambil Z ni? Yours truly dari mane?

Me: Iye, saye.. Ni dekat MS - sebelah je dengan KD tu..

M: Dah on the way ye? Tau tempat? Land mark nye Sek Men Seksyen 4..

Me: Urmm..

M: Yours truly ingat lagi rumah En B?

Me: Oo, sy tau tu..

M: Dekat2 situ laa..

Me: Orait, sampailah tu..

M: Agak-agaknya berapa lama lagi?

yours truly turning to L who's driving Ryan. And so, L replied, "Lima belas minit."

Me: 15 minit, encik..

M: OK, hati-hati drive..
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while waiting for yours truly to arrive..

Z: Eh, tu macam diorang je..

M: Bukanlah, itu bukan Ryan..

haha.. M did care about Ryan..
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yours truly and L finally arrived at the scene..

M walked towards Ryan and found out that L was at the driver's seat..

well, yours truly stepped out and so.. 3 minit itu..

Z already went inside Ryan..

M: Terima kasih ye, yours truly.. Nak ke mane?

yours truly smiled brightly  (as bright as M's smile)..

Me: Jalan-jalan.. Encik ke mane?

M: Saya balik dulu.. (waving good bye) Hati-hati ye..

Me: Iye, same.. (and waving good bye too)

yours truly went inside Ryan and let M drove away first..
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Z, L and yours truly went to the nearby uptown - sightseeing..

final note of the night - yours truly sent a thank you note to M..

thanks for the 3 minit itu..

haha..

in yours truly's life - memories lasts..

feelings - happiness at the 3 minit itu - yess!

sinful - yours truly can't think straight - follow one's heart..

3 minit itu - itulah dia..

...banYak-banyaK haRi..

hari inilah ku tidak bersarapan..

hari inilah ku redeem towel 'BonusLink'..

hari inilah ku khabarkan Ryan ku demam..

hari inilah ku sharekan lokasi - GPS ku hidup..

hari inilah hebatnya ku menukar tayar - dengan bantuan..

hari inilah Ryanku tak mau hidup..

hari inilah aku 'dating' bawah jambatan..

hari inilah ku telefon Auto Assist..

hari inilah ku kejut orang tidur..

hari inilah kau tanya aku pergi mana..

hari inilah ku bagi kau copy..

hari inilah kau dapat teka..

hari inilah Nike ACG ku putus..

hari inilah kau lipatkan tudung aku..

hari inilah bateri handset ku menjunam 1% - padam sendiri..

hari inilah baby belikan donat..

hari inilah kau awal..

hari inilah kau jawab Whatsappku dengan baik..

hari inilah kau keluarkan iklan..
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hari inilah kau mintak tolong, hari inilah aku mintak tolong
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sedia ditolong sama-sama sedia menolong

sudi ditolong sama-sama sudi menolong

suka ditolong sama-sama suka menolong

...inJustice...

had a discussion with my baby brother..

we questioned a lot..

don't ever feel that we're OK - it will set us in mess..

from small things - inJustice brings terrible decisions..
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me - not being positive?!!

hey, talking about being fairly positive - I talk nice to people, I give good advices, I do inspire people, I am well-mannered, I am full of LOVE, I am naturally kind.. sincerely, I do :)

I am just too helpful but not towards my self.. I can't let myself to be helped..
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the answers came by.. no blaming..

good people give you happiness, best people give you memories..

bad people give you experiences, worst people give you lessons..
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haha.. this is not a positive note..

it's more like me expressing my inJustice - thus, spreading inJustice..

ohoo.. I am sorry.. Allah, forgive me and my sins..

yesterday, I somehow can't tolerate in listening.. I took a step in sleeping early.. good night, everyone.. I'm better be silent me..

your words : what happens to you is because you're off guard - doing things 'sambil lewa'..

and I've had this saying - you know, if you've been hurt by the words, then the words are actually the truth..

oh, my bad - I can't hear those laa.. seriously - I termed your words as accusations..

and yes, fitnah itu lebih dahsyat daripada membunuh..
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I act tough..

I had this one friend.. whereby I attempted peace..

this one friend questioned my motives..

I replied as saying that I felt the coldness, I am freezing that I can't smile..

the more I try to understand, the more I don't..

we're strangely apart..

this one friend suggested that actually once been good in the olden days, people blamed unnecessarily.. and unreasonable.. silence is golden..

and so, we make up.. I guess..

thanks to all this inJustice..
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I lost a friend too - perhaps inJustice is the cause..

I miss this friend I lost in June..

ahh..my pride and my inJustice..
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conclusion: inJustice ruins.. it is cruel.. it is not cool.. it shall not be me..

...here I come...

reasons - needed by people.. played by people..

on the other hand - I just don't..

I play mercy..

comFort

I only pretend to have it in my days..

I only pretend to be in it in my days..

most of my days, I've tried and trying..

I am Me..

it is not comfort..

and I asked Him..in silent..

to comfort me in time, for time, with time, on time..

for He owns the time..

...akU tengGeLam sEjenaK...

...bAntuKu...

...teRus...

...guArdiaN...

...welcome and accept...

I cry for being strong too long

...it goes without saying...

...wa jaa dil hum billati hiya ahsan...

...buLan toLonG kaTakan...

...uNruLed...

di kala ku sunyi
dibuai rindu pada kamu
kukenangi 
keIKHLASan yang terindah dari jiwa
untuk kuteruskan
mimpi-mimpi dalam hati

oh pengorbanan tanpa keluhan
kuhargai ke akhir hayatku ini
kau teristimewa 
anugerah hidup paling ku abadi
inilah inspirasi bagiku

di kala hatiku di badai sendu
kutercari
sinar itu di matamu yang menyerikan hariku
tanpa kamu teman ku tiada kekuatan

oh pengorbanan tanpa keluhan
kuhargai ke akhir hayatku ini
kau teristimewa
anugerah hidup paling ku abadi
inilah inspirasi bagiku

betapa hidup berubah setelah sekian lama
payah bertukar jadi bahagia

oh pengorbanan tanpa keluhan
kuhargai ke akhir hayatku ini
kau teristimewa
anugerah hidup paling ku abadi
inilah inspirasi bagiku

oh pengorbanan tanpa keluhan
kuhargai ke akhir hayatku ini
kau teristimewa
anugerah hidup paling ku abadi
inilah inspirasi bagiku

inilah inspirasi...
bagiku...

...seNgaT seJati...

Sunyi di hati ku
Bila bunga di petik orang di taman
Walaupun ku jaga dan ku siram
Ku jaga kembangnya


Sang kumbang merana
Tiada bunga
Bunganya tiada dua
Moga ia kembali ke asalnya
Yang masih menanti


Tiada ku lupa kemesraan, kejujuranmu itu
Tapi mengapa kau berubah
Tak seperti dulu
Aku tersiksa diri merana
Kerana dikau wahai bungaku
Lupakan dia kekasih baru
Yang kau tak kenal isi hatinya
Aku mengharapkan kembalilah
Wahai kau bunga jangan pergi


Ku tetap menunggu merinduimu
Walaupun di balik AWAN
Jangan rosakkan hati ini
Yang suci abadi



Tiada ku lupa kemesraan, kejujuranmu itu
Tapi mengapa kau berubah
Tak seperti dulu
Aku tersiksa diri merana
Kerana dikau wahai bungaku
Lupakan dia kekasih baru
Yang kau tak kenal isi hatinya
Aku mengharapkan kembalilah
Wahai kau bunga jangan pergi


Ku tetap menunggu merinduimu
Walaupun di balik AWAN
Jangan rosakkan hati ini
Yang suci abadi