...empty...

or should i say, i'm too rich with my feelings...empty to the sense of not being able to share with anyone this-so-called jumbled up emotions...recently, i was enthralled...the excitement continues - i was captivated even in my sleep...i was thrilled over the moon...yet, at the same time, i had a guilt feeling and was embarrassed too...i am happy and excited...but i know, i'm not content...i wanted to hope but i can't let myself shattered later...at the end, i'm still an ordinary human being...i'm just SUPER confused...

p/s: please don't ask, i won't answer anyway...i just want to belong...